Momentum

The last couple days have been frustrating,  but in a different way than I am used to, and in a backwards kind of way it's a good thing I guess.  Here is what I mean.  Usually my days have been filled with anxiety and depression over all that was going on with my mom and my inability to move forward.  Now I feel I have pushed against that weight, and got the rock moving forward.  I made a lot of headway in a short period of time before and after New Years and started several projects.  I feel as though Satan has been working over time trying to thwart me.  I have received several messages from different acquaintances I had made playing the games inviting me back to the games.  Yesterday , I was unable to do my readings on my scripture goals due to having dizziness with what I think has been a flu bug.  And up until writing this, I have not written in several days.  I had gotten down on myself for losing my momentum and for not making progress.  But here's the thing.   What is more crucial is what I haven't done.  I didn't go back to the games, although tempted on several occasions, most recently by a new game that I was waiting for to come out.  I didn't let the set back of missing the days studies stop me from doing both days readings today.  In fact, I have found possibly a more conducive method for me to do the "readings".  One of the women who I am doing the study with found the Bible on ITunes so instead of reading it I am listening to it.  They always say that one of your senses is stronger.  I found it was easier for me to listen rather than to read, as I have always struggled with concentration when I am reading.  This may actually open up a new door for me as I might start looking in to audio books that I can listen to that I have been wanting to read by some of my favorite authors but have been unable to do up to this point.  I guess the frustration from the last couple of days is different because I have had a glimpse of the good that can be mine and I have started seeing opportunities instead of road blocks.  But I need to remember that I do not need to conquer in a day, or a week, or even a month.  As long as I keep some sort of progress going...even if it means that day I  just stayed away from the games.  That is still getting me in the direction that I want to go.  Some  days I will make more progress than other days and that is ok.  Today I met the goal of finishing my reading and I ended up blogging, which I didn't think I was going to do.  As the movie "What about Bob?" was famous for saying..."Baby steps..."  Those are ok , as long as I keep that rock moving forward, or at least stable and not rolling back on me I will be satisfied.