Two Small Steps for Womankind

"Do your best and leave the results to God."

I am very proud of myself this evening, exhausted but proud.  I made two steps toward my goal today.  I suppose I should fill you in on what my goal is.  I received several compliments from various people, who read my blog, about my writing.  I had it suggested to me by a couple different people that I might further explore writing for publication.  So, after getting over my initial feeling of flattery, that's when the panic set in, hence the fear of rejection.  Today, though, I have made two steps toward realizing that goal.  I submitted an email to the Pennsylvania TS Alliance about the  possibility of me writing articles for them based on my experience with TS.  I believe I could do a lot of people good with my knowledge of the illness, especially those who are newly diagnosed or are in school dealing with the pressures that it brings.  I even have some limited experience in the work place that I could discuss.  So we will have to see where that leads.  After I did that I had a huge anxiety attack.  When I get overly excited and anxious about something, for some reason it promotes a choking type reflex in my throat.  It is a miserable thing but I weathered through it.  One of my writer friends had suggested that I might also submit articles to Yahoo!'s Associated Content.  So the past couple of days I have been working on a piece for submission.  When I first was thinking about what to write, I was kind of flummoxed.  During this time I came across a neat quote.. "Write about what you feel, not what you know.".  I thought this was an interesting take on writing because so often we think of the other first.  So I decided to start a series of articles about memories with my mom.  This will also help me process more thoughts about my mom and I think once I am complete,  I will print it off for a gift for my family members.  Gifts from the heart after all are truly the best gifts I believe.  Later on today, I put the finishing touches on my article, created a profile on Yahoo!'s content site, and submitted my article.  The information said I would probably not know for a week or two if it will be published or not.  This was followed by another anxiety attack.  So as I said, I am really exhausted, the anxiety attacks really take it out of you.  More importantly though I am feeling a huge sense of accomplishment.  And it feels good....very good.